14 th : i'm late

FOR That special someone that i love, and hate at the same time.

    i know i'm really insecure, impatient, reckless, lazy and have really bad temper. but thank you for being here by my side. i'm sorry for all the trouble, the sleepless nights, the worries and all the shit i've done to you. THANK YOU.this is for you.

  in the beginning, i never took it seriously. i always thought it was a joke. that's why i would so lightheartedly agree.i would never had imagine that everything would turn out this way. i always took valentine's day as a joke. well, it still is though.

  after falling in and out of love, i did lose faith. but surprisingly, all that i lost did come back, slowly, over time. i can't say that everything's back, i'm not greedy. but at least most of it is.i know most of the time i'm a pain in the ass, thank you for tolerating all those emo crap i hurl at you on a daily basis.

  


   i love it when you talk, i don't know why. especially when you tell me that everything's gonna be okay. when i know the whole world's under control. when you tell me about your past, the present, and perhaps, our future?

     

 remember the nights we spent sleeping at the same time? i know it's childish. but thank you,  for making me go to bed everyday. making sure i brush my teeth, making sure i take all my meals.

         i'm sorry for being such a kid, making you worry all the time. making you join me in all the crazy ideas i have, torturing you. m(_ _)m

      thank you for going with me to all those places i wanted to go to. Even though  you hated it.



thank you for being patient with me, tolerating all my trolls, mood swings and all those crazy stuff i made you do. thank you for tolerating my lolikons, flirty friends, etc etc.



thank you for being ever so sweet and loving <3




      and for helping me out all the times i needed you.



remembering all my favorite things








sorry, thank you, and i love you.

P.S.   maomao said 13 was a bad num. so yeah. sorry to keep u waiting :'D

13 : WHUT.

I SHALL WASTE THIS POST. LALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALAALALALALALAALALALALALAALALAALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALLALLALALALALLALALALALLALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALAALALALALALALALALAALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALA kthxbye

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12 th : muppets.

sesame street helps. a lot. :'<

thank you for cheering me up. :D

eleventh : mistakes.

dear mr. thief,

     i'm sorry if what i said hurt you. i'm sorry of my unertainty, i'm sorry for being afraid.
   
     in this game, you win. you did. you really did. you stole it. i tried to stop. i tried to fight back. it didn't work much. 


      take it. just take it. it's yours. you can take it, and keep it in a box. or you could rip it into a million tiny pieces and there is nothing i can do about it. nothing at all. i'll happily let you do anything you want with it.


    it's yours now. really. the heart, it's yours.

with love,
your victim.

TEN : my enemy. looks just like me.

        you know the times where you really want something, but you're afraid that it might hurt you again?uncertain if it was real? did you ever felt that it was too good to be true that you had doubt in it? 

Or. when the world goes against you. there's no support, you fail, yet everyone blames it on you?

  what would you do?

9th : you only hear the music when your heart begins to break

<3

8th : the farewell

To pay tribute to one of the best, funniest and nice history teacher & friend.

R.I.P

"good morning children!"

"good morning daddy!"

"st.mariamammamiakochiwawayamachichi!"

"malaysia terdiri daripada cina, melayu, india, sakai, kokai and pokai."

"XXX bomb YYY so YYY hamchoi!"

"girls are good, boys are better."

"girls are good, boys are...?"

"BETTER!!"

"don't look at me, i didn't say that, i'm innocent."

"itu semua BULLSHIT punya."

one of the slightly more personal..

"foo, mahu kahwin india tak?"

"why not."

" nanti masa depan kamu gelap."

"haha."

"malam perkhawinan nanti kan, u masuk bilik, switch off the lights, and 'eh? mana dia ah' 

that time i give you a torchlight. "

"belum cuba belum tahu, sudah cuba hari hari mahu"

this is farewell. he was a jovial man. i knew he was. we knew he was. we lost a great teacher and friend.

I think he left a happy man. he has contributed too much. he has brought so much happiness. I would like to believe that he is, still with us, deep down in our hearts.

I, would like to think of him as a bubble. A bubble of laughter. as that's what he has brought.

the 7 th : LOVEDRUNK

so much for my insecurity. 

the 6th : the MONOLOGUE. (?)

Hi there. i'm rei.

so.. do you think you know me? 

so.. you think i'm a nice person?

so.. do you come to me with your problems because i'm the shoulder you cry on?

so.. to you, i am a happy person?

 REi. 

she was hurt. by her family, friends and those she loved.

now, 

she lives isolated.

she would rather lock herself up than to let anyone hurt her again.

feelings?

 no, it's not that she doesn't have any. 

she just learned how to control them.

trust?

are you worthy of it?

REi . why REi?

it's short. it's easily remembered. easily forgotten.

she's alright. most of the time.MOST OF THE TIME.

rei. she's afraid.

afraid of?

well, she isn't really sure either.

she's afraid of life, afraid of people, afraid of the world in general.

if there was a thousand seats in a room, she'll pick the last one. the one in the corner. where no one pays the slightest attention.

INVISIBLE. that's what she is.

perhaps, this world wasn't meant for her?

HATE. she does hate. it's in her blood. it's in her soul.

LOVE? what is this love that you speak of? can it be heard? can it be seen?

Or is it nothing but an illusion?

speaking of this REi, would you like to know her better?

she wouldn't mind. honestly. i know she wouldn't.

5 th : those dark days

   




a rose that won't bloom,
winter's kept you, don't waste your whole life trying


 to get back what was taken away.

the 4th : Arise, fair sun, and kill the envious moon

i miss your skin when you were eased.

i   guess  i'll  be  lonely  too.

i was crying alone tonight.

please ignore whatever typed above.

  

so.. well, valentine's day is coming?  and i guess i'll be spending it alone again this year. it's kinda sad though. even though i'm not the type that likes relationships & it's not like i'll ever get one anyway.  

I'll never EVER get one anyway.

seriously, staring at couples going all lovey dovey everywhere is very disturbing. YES. EXTREMELY DISTURBING. & annoying. considering myself being a miserable single and all. so well.. yeah. haha. sad single. sighs. 

any other lonely people that wouldn't mind spending valentine's day with me?

love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind; and therefore is winged cupid painted blind.

THE 3rd : surviving

i don't liek homework.   

  i don't liek homework.

i don't liek homework.

i don't liek homework.

i mean it D: i seriously DON'T LIEK HOMEWORK.

btw, i'm reading 'eat pray love' by  elizabeth gilbert :) awesomeee!  

LALALALALALALA~

hurhur. by the way, i think one of kasturi's teachers is gay =w=V seriously. he IS GAY-ISH. 

ahahahahahaah~ YAOI :DDDD

2 nd : bloo invasion

so... latihan rumah sukan started :DD

wai seng daddy came back for us :D <3 thank you! /bows

to show my gratitude (:

daddy, u're awesome!

about this year's marching team... i don't put much hope in it. LOL. mostly because.. we have a fail ketua? :'D  (obviously, ME.) 

and.. not many people want to join? and that's just bad Q____________Q

i'm supposed to be going around with edward to look for members today but i'm sick D: and now typing this blogpost. eheheheheheh :B

LAST YEAR'S BLUE HOUSE WAS THE AWESOMEST EVER! ♥

♥ i miss u guys so much ♥

unfortunately, the past shall be the past. it will never come back. memories shall stay in ur hearts FOREVER.

to this year's blue house marching memebers,

WORK HARD! PLAY HARD! 

And please don't let me down D:

GO BLOO! ♥

1st : :D ello~

so.. well yeah, hi :D

MY LAST BLOG FAILED D: so.... it committed suicide. :'D and here's a new one x'D haven't been blogging in a while .________. gotta get used to this. orz


anyways it's 2010  11 and... happy new year? :'D i'm so gonna die in science class this year..  /shootself.